That Blah Feeling

I've mentioned that I have been feeling a major lack of motivation lately. It seems to be getting worse and I am trying to find a way to come out of it. I am not even sure what happened. I was so motivated and working hard. In November and December I was on role, but then January just seemed to kill that energy.

Now I feel horrible. Do you ever get the feeling like you are just huge? I mean, I feel fat. Feeling fat makes me feel like I can not move my body. That zaps my motivation and I end up skipping workouts.

I am going to try to just push myself back into the groove. I have set up plans for the next few months and set goals for myself in the hopes this will get me moving again.

This month I plan on doing the treadmill for 45 minutes every day starting today. I also will do my morning workout. When I do not get in the morning workout I will add a short strength training workout in before the treadmill. Hopefully just having a plan will help me out.

I have a major goal to reach by summer because I will not look like a bloating marshmallow at the pool this year! Size 10 pants here I come!

More About Today

No workout today. I started to do the Biggest Loser workout but my knee was killing me so I figured it needed a day of rest. Lunges kill my knees and I have been doing them a lot lately.

Anyway, I decided to go to ExerciseTV.tv to check out what they have going on. It is my favorite place to go for short workouts. There is a lot of free content there which is cool because I love free things. Right now they offer a Jillian pack where you get 15 mini workouts. If you put them all together it is over 45 minutes. I am downloading them as we speak. I recommend checking it out if you want to find free workouts to do from your computer. Most of them you can not download, but they offer them from their site and it is quick to load. They offer a lot of variety, too.

I also joined their current challenge where I got a free workout and will continue to get free workouts every day. It comes with a whole plan, too. You get a diet and exercise guide. All for free!

I just wanted to share what I did end up doing today and my big finds.

No Shred Today

I am not sure why but my morning workout was cancelled. I am not completely sure what I am going to do today. I think a day off from the Shred sounds great and without my workout buddy pushing me I think I will skip it.

I am suffering from severe lack of motivation. I am not sure what is up. A few months ago I was working out about 80 minutes to 2 hours everyday with no problem. Now just a 20 minute workout seems to be an inconvenience.

I go through these ups and downs for some reason. I know I need to get my butt moving. I don not have anything else to do really. I have a short work day today with only a couple things to do, so it is not about time at all.

I just can not get myself going. I can not compel myself to put in a dvd and get moving. I hate it when working out is a fight. I like it when my motivation is soaring and I am looking forward to doing something.

I guess I have some work to do in the motivation department.

Day 4, Level 3

Did day 4. Not much to say about it. It was okay. I would not say it was as difficult. I actually felt it was a tiny bit easier, but I am afraid to say that and then have it kick my butt again tomorrow.

I have been preoccupied with work and other things today, so I didn't really reflect upon my workout as I usually do. Sorry to be so vague.

Day 3, Level 3

We didn't take our usual Wednesday break. We actually did level 3 today. We did an afternoon workout which I really hate. I am full from lunch and it makes me feel sick when I workout. I like working out with an empty belly to be honest.

Anyway, it was the same horrible hell it has been. Level 3 is not getting any easier folks. I sure hope by this time next week that I will be sailing through it. That cardio is still kicking my butt, but it is not really the cardio, it is my arms from using the weights. My arms get burnt out too fast. I hope that improves.

I did the lunges good and the push ups and even the plank position exercises. The abs are still a but sore, but I managed. In fact, the ab work was the easiest part.

Overall, I can say it is not as hard as day 1, but I have a long, long way to go before I say I've mastered it. I just keep telling myself only 2 more days in this week. That gets me through -lol.

Day 2 Level 3 - Holy Crap!

To begin with I was so sore I could hardly move. We decided to do it anyway because we are just troopers. My abs hurt so bad that just sitting is painful - just to let you know the severity of this. So, we started doing level 3 and it killed me again. I was screaming, literally, the whole time because of the pain. We really should have took a break. We are thinking tomorrow may have to be a day off because my abs hurt and Amy is pretty much sore all over. We half did the workout today anyway. Not much effort went into it, but we still broke a sweat. I just did not fully engage in the actions like I usually do.

So, level 3 may not seem too hard when you actually do it, but the after effects are killer.

Level 3 Day 1

Kicked my butt. We worked out in the afternoon instead of the morning today and I think that had an impact. I had a full tummy and was hitting the afternoon slump so my energy was gone. I am sure tomorrow will be better. That is if I can do it -lol. My stomach muscles are a bit sore. Everything else seems fine, though. Overall I think this level will go pretty smooth - or at least I hope it will.

Okay, had to add on. I want to put some specific things in here and not just say it kicked my butt. I did pretty good through circuit 1. None of those moves really was too much. It was circuit 2 that killed me. The cardio segment with the weights was awful. My arms felt like they were going to fall off. I literally could not move my arms and kept having to take breaks - and I am usually not a quitter. I usually push through but my arms were just worn out. Other than that the rest was not too bad. I handled all the other things just fine. Had to use the beginner pose for the strength training segment in circuit 3 because my arms would not hold me up after the cardio. I may be thinking of the wrong segment, but it is the one where you hold the plank, do a row and then lift your leg. I think that is the strength for circuit 3. Anyway, that is the break down of specific things about this level that kicked my butt.