Why am I such an addict?

I am addicted to Pepsi. It is really bad. I tried to quit or at least cut down and I just can not. It is the sugary sweet taste and that oh-so-good caffeine that I can not say no to, oh, and the carbonation. It is the combination. You just can not get that anywhere else.

You may think that it is not so awful to drink pop, but let me tell you what. I do not not drink pop. I only drink pop. I may have some coffee or water but it is mainly pop - all day, every day.

I know it isn't good, but I just can not say no. I will run out in the middle of the night or go out of my way to just get some. I have even went through change just to find enough to support my habit.

It is a drug to me. There is no 'little bit' for me. I am at a loss as what to do.

I have tried substitutes and it doesn't work because something is missing. Coffee gives me the caffeine and I can add sugar, but no carbonation. I have to have the caffeine or I go through major withdraw that kills me, like a true addict.

People may laugh or say I am being stupid but until you spend a day in my life and see this first hand, you can not judge. I am starting to realize that this is serious. It is ruining my teeth and I would hate to see what is happening inside my body. I shudder at the thought.

Anyway, I thought I would share my struggle in hopes that someone out there may have a thought that could help me.