Bummed

Not only have I fallen off the wagon, but I am totally bummed. I should probably be banned from Googling. I have been researching losing weight and exercise and diet and all that crap. What I found bummed me out.

Pretty much the unanimous word is that exercising doesn't make you lose weight. I know, seems weird since all you hear is workout, workout, workout. Basically, if you do no exercise at all and just eat right you will lose weight just as well, if not more than someone who is exercising and dieting.

Basically, we are all busting our asses for no reason whatsoever. The real reason to exercise is just to get healthier. Not that it is a bad thing, but for those of us who just want to lose weight, wasting time stressing about exercise seems stupid.

No matter how "healthy" you get from exercising, if you are still fat then you are still unhealthy.

This whole crazy weight loss cycle is really bumming me out. No wonder I am so stressed and the scale has not budged since fall. Yes, you heard it right - no weight loss since September!!! That includes the 3 months I spent obsessing over every calorie and getting one and a half to two hours of cardio exercise per day.

I am about ready to throw in the towel and pronounce losing weight to be impossible.

There are just too many variables and it seems I can not get the right ones to work in my favor. Maybe I am genetically destined to be a fatty. Perhaps I should go right now and throw out all my skinny pants. Maybe I should just face facts.

I know everyone reaches this point in their weight loss journey. I know if I just get my butt in gear that I can get back on track. The true question I have here, though, is what will make me happier?

Living the life I want, enjoying the food I enjoy or being skinny?

I hate the idea of having to count every calorie until I die. I hate that I fear a can of Pepsi. I hate that I keep pulling muscles because I push myself so hard when I work out. I hate that my ass won't get any smaller no matter what I do, but that my boobs have no problem deflating.

AHHHHH!!!!!!!

Losing weight sucks.

Here are some links to prove my point about exercise:
http://consumerist.com/303880/exercise-doesnt-necessarily-make-you-lose-weight

http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2007/9/25/10120/4942

http://www.nytimes.com/2006/09/12/health/nutrition/12brody.html?ei=5090&pagewanted=all

http://nymag.com/news/sports/38001/

http://www.thefactsaboutfitness.com/articles/aerobicexercise.htm